Breaking parental witchcraft

Whatever your parents programmed you to believe about yourself... Is witchcraft. Don't let the devil win. Cast down all curses that they spoke over you with this prayer:

Prayers for breaking witchcraft

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My parents were the reason that I was so traumatized as a child, which continued into my adulthood. What they said to me mattered to me. Of course it would, I was a child. 

I didn't deliberately carry these beliefs into adulthood, it was subconsciously programmed into me. These programs eventually become self-fulfilling prophesies, unless we become aware of what they are. And we renounce them. 

What my parents taught me:

I'm evil - I went through a stage where I'd throw my dolls at my mom while having nightmares. She told me numerous times that I'm evil. This was programmed into my mind, and I am fearful of being seen as narcissistic or abusive, because I believe in my heart that I'm evil and I try hard to disprove it. 

There's something wrong with me - my mom yelled at me often "what's the matter with you". I worked really hard to be perfect in every way in my relationships out of fear that they would notice there was something really wrong with me. 

I'm an animal - she shouted at me the same way she shouted at our dog. "get out of my sight" - I spent a lot of time outside. In my relationships I never had any boundaries, and I allowed them to treat me harshly. I honestly thought of myself as lowly as an animal. 

I'm too much - too sensitive, too emotional, too chatty, too needy, too fidgety, too demanding, too shy, too quiet, too messy... I had nobody that told me not to believe her. So in my relationships I didn't want to be too much of anything. I was whatever he wanted. 

I can't survive on my own - I believed this all my life, until age 46. I was scared to be alone at home, because of the trauma from all the horror movies we watched. I was 8 years old when I watched the exorcist. Every weekend we would watch movies, and Dracula, vampires, hammer house of horror, amytivylle, Halloween, Friday 13th... These were the movies my dad preferred. I never realized how badly they affected me. I was scared of the dark all my life.  I had never spent a night on my own until I was 49 years old. 

I need a man - our society drums this into us from a young age, but also I was never told that there was an option. It was always just assumed that getting married was what you do. I needed a man to protect me from myself. I have felt too scared to be single since age 12. 

I'm invisible - I tried to be, by hiding underneath tables and chairs to play. Perhaps I liked the seclusion of small spaces. I often didn't want to be seen because I didn't want to be yelled at. In my relationships I needed my partner to notice me at all times. I hardly left his side. I never did anything on my own. I needed him to see me at all times. 

I don't deserve to be heard - the statements: "what now?" and "don't be ridiculous" sums up this belief. I never told my partners the truth about my real thoughts for fear of abandonment. I pretended I was always "cool" 

My existence is annoying - she moaned about taking me to school, fetching me from school, making me lunch, cleaning my room, doing my hair, making dinner, taking me to the dentist, taking me to the doctor, school meetings, signing school outing slips, filling in school forms, taking me to a friend's house... It was all reason for her to complain, so I found ways to bypass having to ask her for things. I even learned how to forge her signature. This transpired in my relationships as being pleasant, not being a problem, not pinpointing their flaws or red flags, not wanting them to think I had needs or wants or opinions contrary to theirs. I didn't tell people if I needed to go to the doctor or dentist - I'd suffer until I couldn't stand the pain. I got used to being "cheap" by cutting my own hair or doing my own nails. I basically tried to be no problem, no bother. I assumed that to be "high maintenance" would cause them to leave me. 

Nobody cares about my feelings - if I cried, she would tell me she'd give me something to cry about, and that "nobody cares about you or your feelings" - so I would repress and suppress and Compartmentalize and deny my real feelings. My feelings were all over the place, my internal world was a volcano. In my relationships I never knew my real feelings, they confused me too much. I'd love them, and I'd hate them in one day. But I'd try to just keep it to myself, for fear of abandonment if they knew I might be unhappy with their behaviour. I desperately wanted to be seen as easy-going, not a bother. 

Reality was that I had high needs as an autistic female, but I was petrified to admit it. As an adult I didn't have the right words to explain my cptsd, bpd, schizophrenia or autism. So I had a nervous breakdown. I believe if it wasn't for my encounter with God, I wouldn't be alive today. His presence caused demons to flee. 🙏

I have tried talking to my parents and my husband about the way they have consistently mistreated me, I have tried talking to them about repentance, demons, salvation, and God, but they are in denial. The devil has them in his clutches. I hand them over to Jesus. He knows I can't afford to face their verbal attacks any longer. There comes a time in our walk with God where we have to release them. God hates abuse. He wants His children to know that He doesn't judge you for walking away. It's not your job to change anyone. If they WANTED to change, they would have sought help. God has given them plenty of time to repent and to turn from their ways. 

I pray that their eyes be open, and their hearts turn towards Jesus. I pray that they come to their senses in their sin, and that they are saved by the grace of God. But until such a time as that, I will keep my distance from them, as per the Lords will.

Amen.