Schizophrenia

 I believe that the development of this illness, in my case, is that I was born autistic which went by undetected - and due to upbringing, parents, trauma, lack of support, society, genetics, mysogyny and abuse - the development of schizophrenia was the result.

I lived with bullying, domestic violence, alcoholic parents, unsafety, neglect, verbal abuse, lack of support or nurture, and I experienced sexual abuse. I developed schizophrenia due to the splitting of my psyche in order to try to cope with all the chaos. 

What I have recently learned is that unhealed trauma creates an open door for demons and spirits. If you don't believe in the devil, then you clearly don't believe in God. The devil is spoken about all throughout the Bible. Jesus cast out demons, and He trained His disciples to do the same. If we only look at the physical wrt schizophrenia, then we won't be open to healing.

 

I was prone/predisposed to developing schizophrenia because I was raised by a mother with schizophrenia - and she is still, to this day, unaware that she is schizophrenic. The Holy Spirit placed it onto my heart, and I believe that God wants me to tell her. The issue here, for me, is that she doesn't listen to me. I tried telling her GP, but he assured me she wasn't a threat. 

Here's my message for today, it certainly is fitting! I paid particular attention to the message on her T-shirt, it's a very real concern of mine. 

https://youtu.be/yMKC06KWe2U?si=6_O3EbWPynTZM2Tx

While I realize that schizophrenia is not witchcraft, those of us who suffer with schizophrenia are very much prone to getting involved with things that are of the occult, witchcraft and cult-like practices. I think it has to do with us believing the demons and the word curses that have been placed onto us. We tend to "gravitate" towards these things, including being controlled by a narcissist, and being abused. 

I'm going to post an article by a trusted Bond Servant of Christ, who, in her video, answered my prayers about what exactly happened to me and why. There were 2 videos in particular that spoke directly to me. You will notice that these videos explain my life EXACTLY to a Tee. 

I have to Thank the Lord for His answered prayers! 🙏 And to Angie for her obedience. I am in awe of your relationship with our Father, and I can see how He's blessing you greatly. ✝️🙌

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The Stronghold of Self Rejection

I'll be sharing a little bit about demons that can cause the stronghold of self rejection. What can come because of that open door. I'll be leading you in a prayer of repentance and renouncing lies of agreements with the stronghold of self rejection. 

You will know the truth, and the truth shall set you FREE. 

When a person has experienced rejection - real or perceived - they can believe the lies they heard about themselves. Words spoken by others, thoughts they heard - they start rejecting self, which opens the door to the demon of self rejection. They have made an agreement within their heart with the lies they heard, now believing they are not good enough in some way to be accepted as they are, and if they change the way they speak or behave, they will be deemed worthy enough to be loved and accepted by others. This is because of rejection. 

Rejection is huge. 

They watch other people who appear to be well liked and accepted, how they speak and behave and alter their lives to suit the requirements to be accepted. Mimicking those people : speaking, behaving, even dressing as they do so they are liked and deemed acceptable, too. Their identity lost, they just want to be loved and accepted, but changing who they are to reach that goal, whether they do this knowingly or unknowingly - eventually not knowing who they are anymore. Not having identity of their own. 

Who am I? 

They have no identity in self, which has been rejected. Instead they've been accustomed to mimicking another person, following an idea or trend, a fantasy about how they need to behave and live. Now having a need to be in control of their world, and those who come into their world fit the criteria and their current beliefs about self. It becomes all consuming. 

They don't know their acceptance and love, their stability and soundness of mind is not found in another person, trend or idea, it is only found in Lord Jesus. They need this truth within their heart. A revelation given by the spirit of their true identity which is only found in Christ as the Beloved child of God. They are in Him. 

Ephesians 1 : 5 - God decided in advance to adopt us into his own family by bringing us to Himself through Jesus Christ. This is what He wanted to do, and it gave Him great pleasure. 

John 1 : 12-13 - But to all who believed Him and accepted Him, He gave the right to become children of God. They are reborn - not with a physical birth resulting from human plan, but a birth that comes from God. 

Release the control over to Lord Jesus so He can minister to their heart and renew their mind to be whom He brought them forth to truly be. To be transformed by the renewing of their mind, that Christ would dwell in the heart through faith. 

Ephesians 3 : 16-19 - I pray that from His glorious, unlimited resources He will empower you with inner strength through His spirit. Then Christ will make His home in your hearts as you trust in Him. Your roots will grow down into God's love and keep you strong. And may you have the power to understand, as all God's people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep is His love. May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God. 

Their confidence and assurance being in Him, not in self, not if they are liked or accepted by others. Receiving and living the truth found in the scriptures that they are wanted. Oh please hear this truth. They are wanted, chosen, loved and accepted by The Father through His son. A precious, beloved child in His sight. Their eternity being found in the word of God by the Spirit who reveals the truth within their heart who they are in Christ. A beloved being, a beloved child of God - of great worth - brought forth into this world with purpose and meaning, not a mistake, not an accident. A chosen child if God for His purposes.

Psalm 139 : 1-8 - Oh Lord, you have examined my heart and know everything about me. You know when I sit down or stand up. You know my thoughts even when I'm far away. You see me when I travel and when I rest at home. You know everything I do. You know what I am going to say even before I say it, Lord. You go before me and follow me. You place your hand of blessing on my head. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me to understand! I can never escape from your spirit! I can never get away from your presence! If I go up to heaven, you are there; if I go down to the grave, you are there.

The demonic self-rejection stronghold can cause a person to open the door to the demon of double-mindedness. In the spiritual realm it looks like an octopus. Double-mindedness, schizophrenia, a split personality.

Its a demon, thus the altered reality and the changing of personalities. Double-mindedness can manifest in a person's life but not overly affecting the person's life, it's just mild. It can become more severe in another person's life, depending on their predisposed disposition to listen to and believe all thoughts or words. Reacting and being moved by their feelings and emotions. Some are more responsive while others are not. That's how double-mindedness works. Some people choose not to live by every thought and every feeling , and the double-mindedness can only have a mild effect in their lives. Others have learned, for whatever reason: generational curses, upbringing, abuse, trauma to listen to and go by every thought and feeling and to react to it and believe it. BEING BROUGHT UP IN FEAR, HAVING HAD STRONG BOUNDARY VIOLATIONS.

We learn we do not receive thoughts that are not  of God. We do not go by every negative thought or negative feelings we might be having. We learn to live by the word of God. By faith. Having our mind stayed upon our Lord.

The demon of double-mindedness can cause a person to feel unsure about oneself, unstable mentally, doubting self, doubting they got it right, doubting they are loved or accepted, doubting their worth, second guessing their decisions, causing confusion, lack of emotional control, unpredictable, can have outbursts of anger, tearful, not thinking things through, reacting rather than responding, have trouble making decisions, always changing their mind, not stable in their thoughts or in their emotions, always wanting reassurance and stability, because they are not assured or stable in their ways. They have become unsure of themselves. Not trusting self. Divided. Confused. Easily persuaded and coaxed to go the wrong way. They can be led into narcissistic abuse, cults, witchcraft, mysticism, new age - to join a cause, to belong - questioning themselves, always unsure if they did the right thing... Behave right? Spoke right? Always concerned people see them in the right light. 

The demonic self rejection stronghold - when internalized - is projected onto the person, onto the actual person within. Manifesting as insecurity, inadequacy, feeling insufficient, not capable, are continually looking to self, whether they realize it or not. 

Their behaviour becomes performance motivated, and resulting emotions depending on how they perceived they performed. Always comparing themselves to others. Wondering how they look to others. Are they good enough? Blaming themselves for being rejected. 

That's a self accusation demon. 

Putting themselves down in their thoughts, and by the words they speak. 

That's self criticism. 

Having lack of self worth. Don't believe themselves to be as good as others. Therefore, they accept bad behavior from others. Not being good enough to be treated with love and respect. Easy to accept unfounded, bad behavior as their lot in life. Even blaming themselves for such treatment. 

When externalized, the self-rejection stronghold is projected onto others. Manifesting as rebellion, fear of man, fear of authority, mistrust of man, stubborn, self willed, not teachable, argumentative. Fearful of commitment. Do not honor those in authority, or those they deem not for them. 

Self-rejection, being a ruling demon, causes the person to look to self, and this opens the doors to demons of inadequacy and insecurity, which reinforce the lies of self rejection. This results in an inferiority complex about self. A stronghold of self rejection has been established. 

But, Praise God and the power of his might by the truth - every stronghold can be disbanded. There's always hope in our Lord. 

This is a demon : Inadequacy. The person feels they are not good enough. Anxious about their performance. Feel they are a failure. Find it hard to accept or trust someone who gives love or acceptance. Finds it hard to receive compliments or praise. Overly sensitive. Sensitive to what people say about them. Sensitive to criticism. Perceive people are being critical of them when they are not. 

Insecurity. The person experiences lack of confidence. Lack of self esteem. Lack of self worth. Negative about self. How they look and appear to others. Critical of self. Think the worst about self. Overly concerned how people see them. Unsure about the decisions they make. Seek validation from others or self validate their behaviour and feelings. Comparing themselves to others. That's the demon of insecurity doing that. 

The person living with an established demonic self-rejection stronghold may over compensate how they feel about themselves by helping others more than they should. Not by the leading of the Holy Spirit. Even putting themselves in harms way to help. Loving others but are not loved back. 

You'll find such a person saying "I can change him, I can change him" .... No. You can't. Only Lord Jesus can change a person. You pray in love, and let your behaviour demonstrate christ. They will try to change a person at their own demise. 

They help people, but then resent them. Go out of their way for others all to make themselves feel better about self. "I'm a good person. I'm nice after all. People should like me, look what I do for them. Can't they see the effort I'm putting in?  I'm going out of my way for them. This is all self validation, to compensate for the lack of self worth. It is not done in love by the spirit, but from a NEED to be loved and accepted. 

If not addressed, the demonic stronghold of self-rejection can result in opening the door to the ruling demon of depression. Which brings despondency, discouragement, hopelessness, suicide and death. 

A ruling demon is the head demon. The strongman. With the strongman demon, there's always other demons with it. 

So that's the explanation of the demonic self-rejection stronghold. A lie was believed in their heart. I liken it to a seashell (spiral pattern) or snail shell. It starts small, and then gets bigger and bigger. That's a stronghold in the mind. A belief in the heart that started small... Just one belief. Then reinforced by another belief, reinforced by another belief, another lie believed, another lie believed, and it becomes a firmly established stronghold. 

But in the power of His might, by the spirit of our Lord... In the truth all strongholds will fall. In Jesus name. 

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I want to lead you now in a prayer. From your heart to the Father. Don't just repeat it. If the words really ring true in your heart, speak them. If you agree, then say Amen at the end. 

Father, 

I repent from believing the lies about myself, that I was less than others. Deemed not worthy of receiving and being loved and accepted. And for trying to be something I am not. Adjusting my behaviour and life to suit what I believed about myself, which was false. Trying to control my life and the lives of others. I repent from my heart. I receive your forgiveness, your acceptance, your love and your truth in Jesus name. 

Amen. 

Whatever agreements I made in my lifetime, knowingly or unknowingly, consciously or subconsciously, no matter in what realm, with the stronghold of self-rejection, and the demonic lies and deceptions, with all forms of rejection, abandonment, betrayal, self-rejection, self delusion, false realities, double mindedness, confusion, avoidance issues, self isolation, pushing people away, lack of self worth, belittling of self, self blame, self condemnation, self Judgement, molding myself into the image of someone else rather than in Lord Jesus, following a cult, a fad, worldly ideologies and beliefs, self medication, and self help. I break and renounce those agreements, in Jesus name. 

I break and renounce all agreements with depression, despondency, discouragement, hopelessness, suicide and death, in Jesus name. 

I break and renounce all agreements with the feelings or thoughts, whether from flesh or demonic, when I believed myself to be inadequate in any way. With all insecurity, with rebellion, with fear of man, with every demonic spirit and power to do with the stronghold of self-rejection, in Jesus name. 

I declare my worth and identity is found in Christ. In Christ alone. 

I will follow Him. He is my example hiw to live and behave. In Him I trust, and He is my Hope. I live my life for Lord Jesus, by His grace through faith in Him. His spirit will reveal truth to me, and the truth will set me totally free from all strongholds and demonic influence, no matter what they are or how long I've lived my life with them. He can do all things. 

I will keep my thoughts, my mind stayed upon Lord Jesus who will heal me and set me free from all lies and deceptions. He will restore my soul, giving me a sound mind in Him. The word of God being my foundation upon which I stand and I will not be moved. The truth of the word of God will sanctify me. I will learn and grow from glory to glory in my lord who made a better way for me in the new life I have in Him being led by His spirit. I give Him the praise. In His precious name, Lord Jesus, I pray. 

Amen. 

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Father wants us all set free. To truly come out of the lies and deceptions. To know the truth. To live the truth. To walk by Him. 

Message from the Father:

They need to know the truth of who they are in me. I will show them the truth by my spirit. This I will do for those who love me. 

I will work all things together for their good. No matter what happened to them. 

I can heal. I can deliver. I can restore. 

I can bring them out of false realities and into my truth. Into me. They will forget the former and embrace the new in me. This I will do. If you turn to me. Trust in me. 

Though you feel hard pressed, anxious, unsure, confused. Though fear grips your insides. I am bigger than it all. Trust me. And I'll cause you to be whom I foreknew and brought forth for such a time as this. 

My thoughts towards you are of love, forgiveness, to heal and restore. To love you and you love me. For eternity. A relationship with your Father. My child, to know me is to know who you are in me. I am your surety. I am your confidence. I am whom you need. Hold fast to me. I won't let you go. I am with you. I'll never leave you or forsake you. Your loving papa. Abba Father. 

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Source : https://youtu.be/8D1PpkR0CQE?si=7FDSrokIktJZRBGD